study mood torn apart

bi,
i'm really torn wide apart.
i dunno what to do..what to decide..
study or family holiday?
study or family holiday?
hmm...we've done the pros and cons rite.
but still i can't decide.

i really wish that i could finish my work early.
infact, i've told u this before and it was during early semester.
hmm..that was my goal.

on the other hand..
with aunties that gonna tell a whole lot of new stories..
to breathe the kampung's air..
to feel the presence of Atuk.. and memories about him..maybe from makcek stories.
to mingle with family members..

cemana ni??? (garu kepala)

and for the hundredth times, i asked her again.
and whats funny is.. i start thinking of not going back to kampung.
wanna start my thesis writing as soon as possible.
she's giving me the strength rite now.

so okay, i think i've make up my mind not to go for the holiday.
have to sacrifice.
really have to.

habiskan cepat thesis.
lagi cepat lagi bagus.

bibi, please keep giving me ur love and strength.

i love u.

....

Thank goodness she's here.
..was feeling quite tense with my newspaper analysis just now.
.. i hugged her after finishing my work for today and felt good again.
Thanks for being here bi.

I love u.