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well i guess i have no other choices than to love you.
it hurts. made me think of how deep is your love, actually?
“Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.” -Anonymous-
heaven on earth
If That's OK With You
I love the way that you look without your make up
I had a girl before we met but we broke up
Theres something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
step up and be with you
If That's Ok With You
We'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos imma make you feel so good thats how i see it happening
yeah we'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
cos baby i wanna step up and be with you
if thats ok with you
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
I wanna keep your toothbrush at my appartment
Make a second set of keys and ask you to move in
I'm not crazy
I know what im getting myself in
I wanna live with you
If thats ok with you
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
If thats ok with you
[If Thats Ok With You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
yeah yeah
we'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
I wanna love you this way that way this way
We'll keep the neighbors awake too late too late
I wanna love you this way that way this way
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
Im gonna love you
im gonna make you feel like you are heaven on earth
I'm gonna saint your mother just for giving you birth
im gonna wanna hold you in my arms when you cry
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
If thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
if thats ok with you
baby, im ok with all that..
i love u alot!
thanks for the song.
one day vacation
im so so so restless today...
but yesterday was definately fun, fun, fun!
finally, we got to go to Spice Garden at Batu Feringghi.
everything with you is so worthwhile!
spice garden was really heaven for both of us. correct me if im wrong. ;)
the ambience was perfect with umbrella-alike trees and greenish plants and herbs.
tho, it was like walking in your own garden but this one is bigger than your own. hahaha!
they made it like a big landscape with beautiful arrangement of trees and plants.
and the best part for us was the big giant swing in the middle of the garden facing the sea.
absolutely peaceful... *sigh*
plus the scenery at the restaurant up the garden which is also facing the sea..
.. with wind blowing to our faces.. calming effect was surrounding us at tht mo.
like you said, it was rejuvenating .. yes for me who are so stressed up about this life especially when i have to deal with this boring workplace everyday.
thank you so much sayang..
and then, we went for karaoke session pulak. hahahha!
which was also a blast and all-out session for you.. yeah.. especially you..and for me.. .
rock music does make us feel relieved at times like this.. ahahaha!
all in all, everything was perfect yesterday.
starting from being able to faked for MC leave at the clinic.. naughty me..
hehehhe.. also thanks to you baby.
well, that was it.. our mini vacation.
i love you.
and till we do it again. :)
"What the world really needs is more love and less paperwork." - Pearl Bailey
blog skin tragedy
bi, ive been trying to change new skin for this blog but to no avail.
I REALLY CANT FIGURED OUT ON HOW TO DO IT!
arrgh! my eyes almost get twisted seeing the html codes over and over again.
this is not the first time i tried to understand on ways to do it..
ive read and read and stared and stared and almost nak jadi macam mencari benda tersembunyi tadi. and here i am back to square one.
*sigh* well i guess im not an IT freak after all.
its not as simple and as easy as it seems..
i thot its just about copy pasting and tadaaa.. a new blog skin.
ive been in front of my laptop for almost 2 hours now.. and nothing changed.
grrrrrrrrrr!
and now im still drooling seeing the nice and creatively done blog skins on the blogskins.com website.
owhh baby, please help me with this when you get back here.
thank you. :)
naughty girl celebration
baby,
happy hari raya aidilfitri!
i know ive been very very bad this year..
forgive me for all my wrongdoings.
forgive me for all the fights ive caused.
forgive me for all the tears tht ran down thru ur cheeks.
forgive me for all the hatred feelings that ive caused within you.
forgive me for all the time youve wasted for me.
forgive me for everything..
i didnt mean to hurt you.
im sorry.
hope you have a wonderful eid with your family members.
i know you did. tho u said you feel bored staying at home lama sangat.
dont be.. cus sometimes i know u need time off from me yg clingy ni.
so, enjoy it while you can. :)
as for me, my hari raya was nice. tho i miss the other kampung so much!
i had fulfilled my craving of eating laksa, nasi tomato, ayam masak merah, kuey teow soup..
as for rendang, lemang and nasi himpit.. i prefer the other kampung's cooking. tastier. ;)
i think my family will not do the usual open house this year.
i know u will.. tomorrow right?.. but i cant go due to some reasons.
owh well.. nevermind.
we'll have our own opening session when we get together later. nyam nyam.. ;)
tho i really miss you right now.
tribute to our 1st cosmonaut.. err.. sorry bi. hehe.
bi, today i cried again in my cube.. but not because of my sucky job, but because of our first Malaysian going to the space baby!
I dunno why, but my happy tears just flowed down automatically when i watched the video on Youtube. Yeah.. we missed the live telecast last nite, thanks to me yg nak berbuka di luar plus the reality that i'm a forgetful person. haha!
back to my story, hmm... i really feel overwhelmed with this malaysia-malaysian-malay-muslim guy achievement baby..
Have a look here:
"The spacecraft, Soyux TMA-11 which carried a Malaysian (woohooo!), an American and a Russian to the space."
And below is an article about him by the Associated Press (AP):
"Doctor to honor Ramadan rituals in space"
He inspired me.. *sigh*
but dont worry bi, i still do love you much more. ;)
sunday blues
tomorrow is monday.
and i hate mondays.
especially when i know for sure that i'll be scolded by my senior.
boleh pulak dia KIV marah2 dia.
mmg sebijik mcm mak-mak.
ooohh... i hate my job.
and oohh.. i miss my baby.
just a few hours ago you were here with me.
and couple of hours before that we woke up late together..
watched ANTM ..
layan lagu raya, kylie minogue, salih yaacob (are u seriously into him singing..ooh please..), lagu dangdut on youtube.
also updating our frenster and ur facebook..
til 6pm and you start wanting to go home... hmmm..
well.. had to understand that today is your dad's birthday.
wish you cld stay until forever here. ;)
and at the very last minute tu la i started to get emotional in an angry way.
just cause ... im hungry.. duhh.. and.. and.. just causssse...
hmm.. so immature of me.
tho she said im being manja.. :P
and well, i had to let her go..
bye bye woiyi.. i said in my heart as she went away.
then, rushed to help my mum whom i found was very angry at me cause she said im burdening her all my life.
cause according to her, i dont think about what i should do for the house.
i dont cook for the house (i do cook when i want to eat cuz if i cook something i dont like and they dont wanna eat, then i myself have to finish it). im not an eater of all kinda things.. huh.
i dont clean the house (well, maybe i dunno that washing the dishes every night and day is not considered cleaning the house)..
and also she assumed that i was "meditating" in my room (did we dear??) cause i was not at her sight all day long.
*sigh**sigh* hmmm...
and right now.. im chatting with you baby. thru YM. hehhe..
tho after so much of being together, when we're apart pun, we still want to feel the presence of each other. i miss you alot. yeah.. i know, im clingy.
you know bi, i cried reading your sms which you send after you left.
i miss u. i miss u. i miss u.
im not sure whether i could really survive this life if you are not here..
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected.
-Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook-
meet me in my dream baby. cuz i miss you so..
this one is for you
I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under the covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmmmmmmm
I’ve been asleep for a while now
you tucked me in just like a child now
cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth
it starts in my soul
and I lose all control
when you kiss my nose
the feelin shows
cause you make me smile
baby just take your time
holdin me tight
where ever, where ever, where ever you go
where ever, where ever, where ever you go…
Colbie Caillat's song titled Bubbly
this one is for you.
the way u make me feel love is the best feeling ever in my whole wide world.
baby, stay with me. forever. please...
im evrybody's hell
yea.. im like my father now.
im slow.
im indecisive.
im changing plans at the very last minute.
im low self-esteem.
im paranoid.
im sad.
im crying.
thanks to my mother.
maybe i should just leave.. cus im making other people jadi slow and pissed.
or maybe i shouldnt be alive.
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it's either i cry or i write
hi bi,
6.18am. i dunno why im depressed today.
Waking up for pre-dawn meal was such a drag for me.
Actually maybe becos the thot of going to work today make me extra sluggish.
I hate my job.
Thing is not that I dont wanna work - as you have thot yesterday, well correction bi.. the thing is I hate what im doing bi.
I dont wanna just stay at home preparing meals and clean the house, I want a new place and routine of work. Something that I like.
Yea I know, tho sometimes we had what we like and still hate it but this job really put hatred in myself and my life. I dunno why I really cant stand this place (tho I still keep going there every morning). Maybe just to jaga hati my mum and dad.
If I live byself, I'll just let go.
Pretty much there's nuthing I can do, so I end up here writing this blog.
I was trying to sleep just now but couldnt.
I feel like crying. One drop two drops.
And then I said to myself, "ughh I need to write something!"
Its either I write or I cry. Tho sometimes I can do both. ;)
Ok thats it, now I can continue my sleep.
Oh, btw, thanks for all your support during my self-crisis' time.
Just being there and being next to me is enuff tho I prefer if you can always be next to me.
I love you. With all my heart.
always
"And I will love you baby - always
And I'll be there forever and a day - always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heaven bursts
And the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - always"
-Always by Jon Bon Jovi-
missing u here in my office..
"childhood dreams"
I can't believe you need me
I never thought would be needed for anything
I can't believe my shoulder would carry such important weight
As your head and your tears
I can't believe you chose me, in all my fragility, me
It hurts so much when I love you, it makes me cry
Every time
You, you are, oh you are
The little boy made for me in the stars
In the star, that's why I can't let you go
The little boy made for mi in the stars
That's why I love you more the further I go
And before this existence you were always there
Waiting for me
You are, you are the realest thing I know
Hands down
The realest thing I know...
I am not used to being carried
Or being able to carry a pretty song
I have been bruised by my many trails
Sometimes my skin's so thick it's frail
I just need to be ignored 'til I wake up to the beauty that is yours
And it all comes to life so suddenly
This is a place so deep, the water's so deep I hesitate, cause
All the energy it takes to feel this power
I tend to run, I tend to hide, I tend to scream
'til I find you and I know
I got you
I know, I know, I know
I'm sliding on the rainbows of my childhood dreams
I'm sliding on the rainbows of my childhood dreams
When you carry me, when you carry me, when you carry me
It's so happy
I'm sliding on the rainbows of my childhood dreams
I'm sliding on the rainbows of my childhood dreams
Nelly Furtado's song dedicated to you bi..
The lyrics are sooo for you..
mind-blowing job
fewwhh... its been err.. how many months since I last left my love here..?.. 4 months????
So sorry dear. But my heart still full with love tho I was not here.
Well, am writing at my office still. The condition has change, I mean my thots abt dis office.
Hmm.. dont quite like my job. Its totally not for me. I'm not in love with this job.
I wasnt thinking of this place when I'm at home or anywhere. It's just A JOB.
The nature of the job really sucks.
Quite a few times I cried during working hours and at home (when I have to finish DA JOB at home).. and as usual, there's always my baby who'll try to uplift me again and again and again asking me to keep holding on the job.
Thanks alot bibi.. and sorry for troubling you.
And also, as usual I tried picking up pieces of hope in dis office for my future reference.. (after I've been reminded thousand times about it..)
Can't wait for a new job.. or career..
(well.. I actually dont have a clear vision on what i wanna do..*sigh*) ..
bibi, I'm signing off.. cant really write much.. too many people roaming around here.
and yes dear, CONGRATULATIONS on your new job (a career i supposed) .. new place.
Finally, you got what you want.. and hope you'll last long there... Good Luck!
Mmmmuah!
note: mind-blowing = intensely affecting the mind especially in producing hallucinations
(http://www.thefreedictionary.com/mind-blowing)
she's still d one
It has been a long time huh?..
Am writing this from my little cubicle at my office.
Finally, I have start working. About 2 weeks ago. :)
What to write?..
Well, doing fine here. Too early to say anything tho.
As for my baby, she's fine too.
A little bit quarrel here and there..
But she's still the one.. the best.. and everything.
Luv you bi.. mmuah!
some bitter things
Today we had a small-medium fight.
We were (still are) a bit tense about things happening in each others family.
Actually, (I think).. it was not really a problem to me..until she brought up about it one day.
I always think that we should help our family members in every possible way we can.
But she thought that I have been used by my in-law.
Making me spending less personal time with her..
When I come to think of it, sumtimes it makes sense that I've been used.
But, on the other hand, I think that its okay to offer help for my in-law-my younger brother's wife.
I just dont know. Maybe...
Actually bi, I'm torn and confused.
I understand what u said.. but, what can I do..
(and tell me.. what can u do with ur problem, u said ur parents r pulling u.. why dont u just rebel and tell what u feel and just dont co-operate with them.. can u?)
Earlier, I dont think it's a problem, but now.. it's disturbing.
But the most important thing now is: I LOVE U no matter i spend less or more time with u.
When our relatives are at home, we have to think of all their good points or it would be impossible to endure them.
- George Bernard Shaw -
study mood torn apart
bi,
i'm really torn wide apart.
i dunno what to do..what to decide..
study or family holiday?
study or family holiday?
hmm...we've done the pros and cons rite.
but still i can't decide.
i really wish that i could finish my work early.
infact, i've told u this before and it was during early semester.
hmm..that was my goal.
on the other hand..
with aunties that gonna tell a whole lot of new stories..
to breathe the kampung's air..
to feel the presence of Atuk.. and memories about him..maybe from makcek stories.
to mingle with family members..
cemana ni??? (garu kepala)
and for the hundredth times, i asked her again.
and whats funny is.. i start thinking of not going back to kampung.
wanna start my thesis writing as soon as possible.
she's giving me the strength rite now.
so okay, i think i've make up my mind not to go for the holiday.
have to sacrifice.
really have to.
habiskan cepat thesis.
lagi cepat lagi bagus.
bibi, please keep giving me ur love and strength.
i love u.
....
Thank goodness she's here.
..was feeling quite tense with my newspaper analysis just now.
.. i hugged her after finishing my work for today and felt good again.
Thanks for being here bi.
I love u.
i believe
"Stay committed to your decisions; but stay flexible in your approach.' -Tony Robbins-
It is hard to pleased people. Especially people who are important to us like our family members.
Family.. parents..siblings.. are the closest to us. They expect more from us.. sumtimes to a certain extend, it makes us think that they shouldn't interfere with certain desicions we make. But if u think it in a positive ways, they actually want us to become a better person or just wanted to help and do favors for u.
So, baby, just bear with them. Sekejap je tu.
Think in a positive ways.
But make sure u have ur plans and efforts.
I'm always on your side. I know tht ure a very career-oriented person. With the confidence you have (oh! maybe mak u taktau kot u ada special power-tahap konfiden yg sungguh tinggi), I sangat okay kalau u memilih keje. Kalau tak, memang I dah lama bising2.
Okay.. hopefully u can bear with them sementara u dpt keje yg u nak.
I'm sorry if I'm not good in words. I'm bad in advising people. Very-very teruk. I usually always tried very-very-very hard to counsel, but.. in the end.. I always felt unconvinced. Me myself pun tak yakin, how can people believe my words?
Bi,
I'm always here for u. I believe u. Tho I didn't said much, but trust me.. I do care.
Just tell me what u want to soothe you.
I may bad in talking, but I'm good in action. ;)
I love u.
the thots that count
She read this blog. And I did read hers (its ours actually). The blog which I suggested in sharing out our feelings..but I totally forgot about it. I'm sorry.
She said she loves my writing yang skema ni. Well, thank u. And I love her writing jugak. Very the bubbly way.. macam dia selalu. The terharu thing is she remembered our every single moment. I personally love the N9 trip stories. Simple yet eventful.
We're chatting thru YM rite now. And still we havent finish discussing the way we write in our blog. I was praising her about how she's good in writing and remembering things. And this is what she replied, "after we do it, i write it...coz everything i do with u..i wanna remember..i dont wanna forget...ever." .. hmmm.. true.. we write because we dont want to forget. Thank u bibi for the thots.. cos I'm bad at remembering moments unless I wrote them down.
Back to our blogs.. she wrote nice things about me.. hehehe.. yay! After half a year, baru she wanted to tell me.. more of reminding me sebenarnya. Mine.. is quite boring ..schematic grammar punya bahasa. Actually bi, I'm trying to upgrade my English yang dah sangat2 berkarat ni. Hopefully, thru tis blog, I could learn using new words yang I suka. Altho, there're occasionally mix of Manglish.
So now, we have two blogs. Maybe after this, I'll pop in ur blog..nyibuk kan diri menyumbangkan my writing since I know the password.. or maybe u taknak I kacau?..
Its okay. I'm fine if u decide that way. :) .. or maybe u pun boleh pop in this blog.
What's mine is urs too baby.
I love u.
I love u.
I love u.
Okay, well, tell me what u think (If u still read my blog yg tak seberapa ni).
Need to sign off.
Just wanna tell u..
Bi, I still cant believe that I got to hold u finally..
I never expected anything like this.
Siapalah I.. shy and introvert girl yg maybe u takkan pandang.
I didn't hope..I only dream.. a lot u know.. and its all about u.
"Where there is great love there are always miracle." - Willa Cather
I couldn't agree more.
oh no!
Oh no! you nak baca blog I yg tak seberapa ni. Dahlah I tak pernah buka u punya..eh..kita punya blog.. banyak pulak tu u tulis. I rasa bersalah sangat..sebab I yang cadangkan untuk tulis sesama blog tu, tapi I langsung tak baca. Hmm...maybe sebab u pun buat senyap je pasal blog tu..I ingat you tak interested. Tapi, kalau i interested, mesti I dah lama buka, baca n tulis balik. I'm so sorry sayang. I'm sorry. I nangis ..meleleh-leleh air mata masa baca skit apa yang u dah tulis. Sampai hati kan I?.. tak baca pun selama ni apa yang u tulis.. I rasa bersalah.
I tulis ni sambil tgk drama TV3.. yang ada Zamarul .. yg ala-ala u bila u tgk I.
And you know what, I baru realized, u ni sebenarnya ada dreamy eyes. When u look at me, it is as if u really pay attention to my jerawat and lubang-lubang jerawat I (hehe) .. in a dreamy ways u pay attention la to what I said, which in the end akan buat I malu.. :P hmm... *sigh*
Well, bibi..
Actually I nak tulis tentang date kita tadi.. sempena first anniversary kita. Biasala.. I ni kalau start tulis.. suka gakla tulis panjang2 yang merepek2. Kalau pendek sangat tu, maknanya I ngantuk la tu.. tapi still nak tulis jugak.
Hmm...I had great time petang tadi. We dated kat tepi laut yang sungguh breezy.. I sangat suka.
Rasa macam buat video clip pun ada.. dreamy.. tranquil.. very calm.. sangat relax.. Sesuai untuk goda2 u..hehe.. mcm masa malam I first keluar date dengan you setahun yang lalu.
Anyway, tahun ni, hadiah I rasanya biasa2 je utk u. Mcm tak siap. Some collection of black and white photos of us. Hopefully, one day, I boleh framekan utk u. But, u gotta keep them safely.
And as a hadiah from u, I got none... hehehe..taklah... I dapat kad BM (seperti yang u kata dalam kad tu..hehehe) and I gotta read your writings on our blog which I totally forgot (I'm so sorryyy bi..). Belum abish baca pun lagi.
Anyway, thank u for the card and the blog. Itu pun dah cukup menghappykan I. I understand u, u have no $$$ rite now..byk expenses nak kena byr. Its okay. I'm happy n grateful enuff that u actually saw the real me one year ago. Thank u soooo much sayang.
And as always, u akan menjadi the sweet-talker-tive. Thank u sayang. I really appreciate every single words yang you cakap. Hopefully, I'll still be the same girl u love today in the years to come. I rasa I takkan marah2 u, kalau u tak buat salah.
(psst! oklah.. One little tip for you, I love sumone who likes to tingkatkan/majukan diri dia dengan kehendak dia sendiri.. tak kisahlah dalam apa hal pun.. be it ur career, or ur academic status or apa-apa jelah.)
ehem..
And well, u also asked me what makes u different from my previous ex, hmm..
hmmm...
hmmm...
hmmm...
... perhaps the next post pulaklah... ;P
Gotta stop sekejap.
I love you.
Happy 1st Anniversary bibi woiyi..!
my first poem for her - It's When
My dearest Gia,
It's when I'm with you that
I felt so much love
It's when I'm with you that
I felt so much fun
It's when I'm with you that
I felt life is full with so many new excitements
It's when I'm with you that
I felt everything in the world give ways to me
It's when I'm with you that
I felt life is so worth living.
I love being with you bibi.
Happy 1st Anniversary sayang!
some updates
actually bi, i have a lot to say.
especially tentang apa yg dah berlaku in the past months.
the fight with my mother..
where u really cool me down with ur marketing words ..hahaha..taklah.. with ur soothing and uplifting words for me.
mcm selalu2..
yeah.. i have to be more patient in life.
bukan sume yang kita nak, kita blh dapat.
just do what u have to do n jangan harap org puji2.
that was what u said.
hmm..i guess, im still not matured enuff to think simplest thing like that.
i need some motivation from other people mcm u.
im always in my low level of self-esteem.
i still cant handle my own emotions independently.
so far, u are the best person who really understood me.
itu belum kira our countless telepathy session where we actually can connect to each other when certain feelings mcm rindu, sayang, pilih game yg sama etc. occured.
hmm..maybe jugak i dah terlalu lama living with my parents.
or maybe jugak i ni terlalu berkira nak buat sesuatu.
im really not a giver u know.
such egoistic girl yg sepatutnya dah berubah sebab im getting older.
hmm.. hot blooded woman.
i observed u for these 1 year.. and i think ur more a giver in everything and thats make me wanna make use of u more..hahaha..taklah.. but seriously, ur a giver.
n i love u for all that.
the balik penang surprise..
hmm..actually bi, u were a good liar.
its just that as usual my instinct and our telepathy i guess.. that make me felt that u hv arrived.
u know how much i missed u.
the day u came back tu.. i was already hopeless.
but suddenly, that nite, i got this sense yg kata u sebenarnya dah balik.
and suddenly, u were in front of me.
i love u for that too..
i love u
i love u
i love u
(rite now.. i tgh sembang dgn u thru YM phone call)
(u were saying that im like kylie minogue???... ermm..no comment.)
(one word-gatal!)
stop for now.
kita sambung lagi lenkali dgn citer2 yg dah lepas. hehehe.
mmuuahh!
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