just want you to know ;)

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

she loves me, she loves me not?

yeah.. it's been a long time i haven't update this blog.
so many things happened in between the month.
well after the second last entry, i actually wanted to gave up this blog after what you have done. but thinking of that i still care about you and still love you the same after what happened, i gathered my guts to write this entry. well yea..i forgive u but to forget??.. i dont know.

as i said before, so many things happened..
new year. new salary. new choices of job or career. new promises. new chapter in our relationship..it has been TWO years baby.. and my sayangness to you are multiplying more than ever. i sangat2 sayangkan you.

the latest recently is about you acting strange towards me. i'm not sure why. tho you have told me to not to think yang bukan2, but my mind still cant avoid from thinking yang bukan2. you changed since after new year celebration. and its getting worse for me when you seemed so happy to go out with your friends rather than happy being with me before that. then, you got sick and went home.. and you've been very quiet after that which made me cry even more. i love u but why you did all these to me?..

is it becos of me leaving for K*L which i still think hard about it? is it becos i bore you? is it truly becos your family problem?.. i know you gave me this reason. in fact, you dont want me to get scolding from you with no appropriate reason becos of this family thing. well, i think i have to accept this reason from you. its just that i want you to share it with me.. everything, every pain and every feeling you have. dont just keep quiet about it. just tell me you need time alone cus of your family problem. dont just ignore me and make me think aren't you still in love with me??... i'm hurt.. i was..

i'm sorry for everything dear. sorry if i ever hurt you. sorry if i ever neglected you. sorry if i have never been good enuff for you. sorry if when i'm with you and you think my mind was not there thinking of you. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. well, you know me, i think alot. but my heart is still with you. forever.

and now, i think you're recovering. better than past few days. i received more smses from you. tho not so frequently like before. i want the old you.. loving and funny.
i miss u.. alot! and it hurts.

The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. ~Nicholas Sparks/The Notebook~