agitated girl

sorry for not writing for so long. we both been busy on coping with our separation. not permanent separation but me working in K*L n you in P*enang. i don't know how we did it. i really must apologize to you that i have to make dis decision of working here. so far away from you yet so close at heart you know.

to tell you the truth, it is really so damn hard to be strong without you here. i don't know how i did it either. again, frankly, i could be crying every second thinking of you.. who are 350++ kilometers away from me. for even that far, you are still right here, in my heart and mind. bibi, why are u so far away??.. yea its my fault. stupid me, thinking only about myself and now i regret each day here. i really2 mish u baby.. :(((

what more with my problem at the office, make me even miserable. after being immersed in the work that i once dream of for almost 4 months now, i can say that this job is tougher than i think. keeping up to date with daily events.. so tiring and the worst is that i have to find my own 'issues' to r*eport before i cld say tht i've done my work. i'm tired of thinking baby.. i think i prefer working in a quiet environment but at the same time i can express my creativity..

and then personal pressure from my boss which makes me kinda tensed and irritated at work. i still can't confirm what's his motive towards me. cus he's being cold towards me after the texting incident. not that i really want him to treat me like a princess but at least hello... say something please! he really is being unfair towards me. putting me in a guilty position. i regret every single thing i said to him. dont worry nothing personal baby. general stuff and statements. feel like wanting to run so far away and wish i never knew him at all.

and now here i am.. writing in our old dusty blog just to express my feeling for all these time here alone without you. really miss you like mad.. like terribly crazy and it really2 hurts baby.. im so sorry, im sorry ..im so sorry i left you there.. just that i thot you would come and stay here with me. well, maybe i should give myself time to wait for you to come here.. 4 months..pffttt.. what do i expect.. but baby, i think i really need to find other job.. or else i'll have to go back home and help managed my mum's 'pets'. ;)

tomorrow is another day that i hate going thru.. alone n miserable n down without you... :(((

i miss u bibi.. miss u so much.. :(((
i want you for life. forever.

i love you. i love u. i love u. never ever forget that.

Absence makes thy heart grow fonder. -Anonymous-